It’s on my other laptop, but it’s not currently connected to the internet, and I’m falling asleep 😴

I’ll upload it tomorrow. Merv said he wanted me to. I’m extremely upset, crying, and yelling in it. He is sitting next to me in the video. It will definitely have a content warning on it.

I am in two minds again. Though that doesn’t really feel like the right way to explain how I feel. I guess I feel sad. I’m extremely flat and have tears in my eyes. I thought my eyes were watering from needing to go to sleep, but now that I’m writing this, thinking about earlier today is just making me so sad.

All I have ever done is be nice and kind and generous to dollar man and his family, yet he continues to treat me so poorly. And I still can’t stay calm to save myself when I feel attacked.

My sister is messaging me, and four new messages have come through, so I’m just going to upload this.

9:40 p.m.