For not rising above my fear regarding losing our home when I knew deep down inside we’d be ok.

I was in so much pain from everything going on and finding out the information I did over the past couple of weeks, that I allowed myself to sink so deeply that I lashed out at the person who has helped me the most.

Merv is so beautiful, and I just feel so sad and ashamed sometimes for him seeing me like that. For anyone to see me like that. I’ve worked so hard. I don’t ever want to become that version of me. Merv is so patient and kind.

We ended up having another quiet day, reading and napping. Then we watched Netflix while eating dinner. I made Indian curry tonight with plant based chicken. It was really good.

We have both gone to bed now. I’m lying in the dark in  my room, typing this before I roll over and pass out. Goodnight.

10:08 p.m.