I’d already addressed it in the comments and really didn’t need to bring it up again. If the same comments keep coming, I’m just going to ignore them from now on.

On a much brighter note, I have 459 subscribers!! 😁🥳

Thank you all so much. You all matter to me. You are who I think of when I think I don’t care about anything and don’t want to make a video. I am so grateful to you ❤️

I have had an interesting day. Many new insights 😌

I have finally gotten to a place where I have accepted that I obviously have unfinished business that I need to attend to before I head off.

Sure, as I’ve been previously telling myself, I can do everything online, but, why on earth would I want to be dealing with everything up there when I could possibly need something from my filing cabinet or something that I’ve forgotten to bring. That doesn’t even make any sense. I don’t even know why I’m putting everything off. I am quite capable of doing what I need to.

I have, however, completely unpacked the actual roof storage bag and rolled it up, and put it to the side with a bunch of other stuff. I put most of the content in the living room along the wall and vacuumed the lounge. I have started unpacking the clothes. Well, I did one last night and finished unpacking the jumbo bag since I have realised a lot of its content can actually go inside my car. Both under and on top of the mattress.

Speaking of mattresses, I ended up flipping mine over so the memory foam is on the bottom to see if that helps. I learnt too late that memory foam is not good for side sleepers and people who move a lot when they sleep. Both I do. The bottom of the mattress is harder than I thought it would be, and I don’t have a mattress protector blanket. I’ll report back tomorrow how it goes.

I’m still experiencing the feeling that I don’t know what to do with myself. I keep looking at the bags and then back here at my phone. It’s so silent i here expect for the now humming internet box. I think I should put something on for noise. But again, I don’t know what. Plus, I have to update my Netflix account with my new card details.

I think just lying in the dark with the salt lamp was quite nice. Lovely, almost tranquil, for a moment there. I think I want to do some more of that. Though, I may wait a wee while and do a little unpacking first.

I am glad that I have realised that I needed to rethink everything when it comes to what I am taking with me and why. Along with finally admitting to myself that I have to stop putting stuff off and take care of everything I need to do regarding the ladt financial years taxes, and call about my birth certificate on Monday.

I definitely feel much more at peace now with everything going on. Especially turning to meditation when I noticed my mood slipping. It really worked. I am going to hold on to that feeling and knowledge and will try to remember that you can meditate in almost  [do not try to meditate while driving a car, for instance!] way that feels comfortable to you. For forever, how long feels right for you. There is no right or wrong way to do it. This I’ve been told and read countless times throughout the years. I have to agree.

I’m feeling ok. Not good, not bad, just tired, come to think of it. And I’ve typed this whole thing with one finger, which now feels numb 😳

It’s been an interesting day, that’s for sure.

7:55 pm

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