If you’re new, I don’t watch these until they are public. Just works for me that way 🤷‍♀️

Anyway, I am obviously upset. The thumbnail shows that. I remember. It was painful. Is painful, I guess. But the weed and medication has helped taken care of that.

I know what day I’ve had. I know I have cried until I thought I was going to pull a muscle. I’ve done before.

This is what gets me. I do believe what I say. And yet I very vividly remember saying “I want to crave my tattoo off my arm” or words to that affect. This is real. Why this is my real is beyond me.

I want to stay calm. I want to see the yellow brick road. I want to have faith in what I believe in, instead of constantly falling back on past habits.

I am very angry and upset in this video. I believe. Please seek help if anything makes you want to talk to someone 💗

4:54 pm / Uploading 10:26 pm