It’s been making the strangest noise for a little while now 😬😅

But it still dries my washing 🤷‍♀️

Yesterday, I’m sure I said something along the lines of feeling like something keeps happening to delay me from departing 😒

I think I’ve realised today with the responses I got from everyone in real life who I spoke to today, I know I overreacted. Unfortunately, this is not something I can control at the time or at least until I can calm myself down. At least for a while left on my own. I don’t need anyone else’s opinions to validate what happened. The pain is real.

Yet, deep down, my anxiety has been so  bad since the last time I saw my mum. And I hate that, since the traumatising incident at the plaza / mall which happened on Thursday the 4th of July. Today is the 17th of July, and she has not once mentioned it, or acknowledged it once.

I told her I was in tears. Not because I wanted to be. I promise you all. I almost broke at my mechanics, and that would have been humiliating. She told me I need to learn to be stronger. I think I need a mother. But I have to let her go 🥹😢

She is truly messaging me now like it literally didn’t happen.

12:31 pm