When in the moment something sounds bad, or, like it’s letting others down, I don’t know what happens to me, but I break. I can hold it together to a degree, but that’s not long, unfortunately.

It’s humiliating in societies’ traditional ways. Alone and crying. Wondering why everything just feels so darn hard. I know why. I’m not ready to leave.

The cables not aligning helped me see that. Plus, this way, Rick is able to help me on his day off in the morning and see me off with on the day.

In the meantime, I’m unpacking and packing lighter 😆

10:53 pm