6:06 pm | What a weird day. Looking back, it’s strange to see just how disjointed my emotions were. I couldn’t stop crying and literally felt, as in physically, such pain and sadness. I don’t understand why.

Throughout most of the day, I had this feeling like I didn’t want to drive tonight. I wanted to change our visit from tonight to tomorrow after my doctor’s appointment, but I didn’t want to mess my family around, so I didn’t say anything.

I was so tired and emotionally drained by 2 p.m., or just before that, I even set a 15-minute timer on my phone to have a short nap. I was lying on my bed after having downloaded my uni content before that. I was too paranoid to actually nap, though. I keep thinking about needing to shower and wash my hair as well as get my car sorted. At this point, I still thought it was a wheel alignment I needed.

I made myself get up and shower and was so pleased with myself that I did because my sister messaged me right when I got out. Divine timing and all. I checked the GPS, and it said 40 minutes to get where I was going. I called the tyre store and asked if I could drive my car today, knowing it needs a wheel alignment, which I’ll do tomorrow. I said I thought it was due to driving over a curb. Or truthfully, a lot of curbs lok

I honestly can’t believe I drove on it. Especially on the freeway. It’s all fixed now, thankfully. I feel incredibly lucky that the actual tyre isn’t damaged. I still can’t get over the fact that I didn’t realise when I turned the radio down and listened to the noise when I drove home on Monday.

I am very happy that this all happened at home in my driveway. My sister was able to organise it so that we can meet up tomorrow for an early lunch. That way I can see my mum. Everything worked out. It always does. I very much know this. But when I cry like that, I can’t explain how it feels or why it happens. 6:41 pm

I’m pretty sure I have put my phone down, but on saying that, YouTube doesn’t save posts as you write them, so who knows how like I’ve been writing this lol