I don’t know what to say, so I’m just going to upload it

10:28 pm

Content warning.

Update: I just wrote a post on YouTube but have saved it somewhere. I feel bad for being angry, to begin with. I just feel sad, too. But some people don’t like phone or video calls because it gives them anixety.

That’s how I feel about communicating via text these days. Especially with my sister.

I feel like I’ve lost time. I have to watch the majority of the final mafs commitment ceremony back on catchup and I’ve upset my sister for no reason in the sense once again I should have said nothing at all.

I am paying for top private health insurance for a reason. As much as I truly want to stay with Boss, my suicidal ideation has been pretty active since uni ended resulting in so many nights falling asleep th with visions of hanging myself.

I am going to try really hard to get out there and try and join a club etc to meet people in person. I’ll see how I go.

I have started about a dozen messages and posts today and just keep overthinking so much that I haven’t finished or shared any of them. Same with this update.

I still need to eat and I’m starving. I am going to have cheese toasted sandwiches and watch young Sheldon.

Plumber be here at 9 so I’ll get up then.

11:17 pm