Tomorrow, I shall try again, this time before I smoke weed 😆😂

I’ve been in a weird state of mind the past few days 😕

I am so excited to finish university really soon, yet simultaneously feel like I’m going to lose the few friends I’ve made through university since they are all continuing with their studies, and I’m not. And as it stands, I have only ever seen Cassidy in person when I visit her 😔

I also introduced her and a few students to each other, and they are all so happy that I did, yet in what I imagine is pure borderline personality disorder fashion, I can’t make the feeling that they will all move on in their lives since at least three of my uni friends are starting honours in March, and rest of my uni friends are still completing their bachelor degrees 🤓

There are so many things that I want to start doing regularly that I can start immediately but just keep putting everything off to sleep instead 🤷‍♀️

I guess if I’m completely honest with myself I wish I had a friend that I could actually up with in person. I really don’t have anyone I can call and ask if they want to catch up. I have asked all of my uni friends who actually can drive to me or me to them. Corey is the only other student I have met recently but that was because I organised a study day with Cassidy 🫣

Anyway, I hope the video and audio is ok on this video ☺️

I am going to put all the weeds and vines I’ve cleared away in the back area of my yard. I’ll upload photos to my website if I remember 🤣

5:07 pm / 6:15 pm