Which in turn makes me want to withdraw from everything and everyone. This is of course a lesson. Everything is if you can separate yourself enough to take a step back and watch yourself go through the multiple sliding door options that can pan out based on whatever action you are about to take. Again, please keep in mind I am someone who can literally completely detach from myself. Now that shit is scary. But tends to only happen if I’m in danger or having yet another panic attack because of uni. That is thankfully coming to an end.

I am so excited to be free from university after enrolling less than six months after quitting ice since, let’s face it, most people aren’t like me. I’m not ashamed of my past; it’s a part of who I am, though; of course, there are things I wish I hadn’t said throughout my life, but I think I explained what happened in a recent video. But the majority of the population are highly misconceived about almost everything to do with what it’s really like being on it and what it does. Some things you need to live through to truly understand ✨️

My point is that not only am I completely open and honest about everything to do with that time in my life, but I constantly forget it’s not a normal part of people’s everyday conversations, whereas in mine, it’s as normal as asking what the weather’s going to be 😆

I can hear my mum in my head saying, “Why? Why must you share everything? You have to stop ……” 🤣🤣🤣

Mum, if you ever find this website, I love you, but I believe it’s better to say nothing. I learnt this incredibly well when I shared with you the tattoo inside my mouth. You told me you had to have a friend come and stay as it was late, and you thought I’d given you a heart attack. I totally forgot about that until now, and that was over one word tattooed inside my mouth where no one can see it unless I show them 😂

The weed has hit me, combined with not taking all my Ritalin since I slept late and want to go to bed early. I have a mountain of washing to sort and put on, but the most important thing I really need to do is call my internet company and get them to run checks because something isn’t right, and I have no idea what 🤷‍♀️

I feel like I’ve been writing this for a long time 🤔🤣

5:11 pm