And now it feels like I have a broken foot. The opposite foot to the one with stitches. It hurts so bad it’s making me want to cry but I don’t want to cry, because there’s a whole well of tears aside from hurting my other foot that I just can’t deal with right now 😔

I feel like all at once, I can see exactly where I’ve gone wrong every step of the way throughout this trimester, just like every other trimester, and yet feel like I’m just far to cognitively exhausted to start afresh, so am praying that I can somehow actually make some progress on my assignment tomorrow before tutoring 🙏

I’m sick of feeling so flat and sad when my core beliefs completely surpass these things. But alas, my 3D self still has, however, long it will be to catch up. It’s been this way ever since the understanding of how vibrations work came to all those years ago 💕

None of this is discussed in this video, I just have a lot on my mind and don’t have the energy to write more than this, in an actual blog form, nor do I have the ability to discuss anything of importance to me out loud to my camera. Hence, today’s short video 📹

How the alarms didn’t wake me in the morning, I honestly don’t know. I purposely didn’t put the sound of rain and thunderstorms on to sleep to like I usually do so that I would hear the alarms because I couldn’t find my phone. They did not. I got up at 2:30 p.m. to multiple missed phone calls as I had two phone appointments scheduled for today 😅

My foot still feels like it’s broken, but all of my medication is out of arm’s reach, and getting up right now is just not happening.

I was feeling so overwhelmed that I couldn’t even decide what food to make. I’ve spent well over $300+ on groceries in the past week, and even though I really thought I was getting easy to make, no effort required food, I was wrong. I have enough food to probably feed a family of four for well over a week, maybe even a fortnight, and yet when I open my fridge and freezer, all I am currently seeing are too many open that still take effort that I just don’t have so I lay down on my couch with my weighted blanket and only got up because the alarms started going off. I figured I may as well make tonight’s video at the same time ☺️

But, as it stands at exactly 8:21 p.m., I have no idea what I’m going to do, but I dare say, I’ll probably lie here for a bit and eat the kiwi chips I bought as a treat yesterday, while I relax better. I’m aiming for getting in the air fryer, so hopefully, I’ll do that soon. Given that I’m still exhausted and need an early night to wake up at a decent time tomorrow 😴

8:24 p.m.