It’s moments like these when I wonder if learning what all the emojis mean, because, I can picture in my head the facial expression I want at the end of the incredibly long title, but I have no idea which one it correspondences to in emoji land lol I tried a heap but no clue haha 😂

I realised today that all of my socks have holes in them where my big toes are. I learnt this when I looked down this morning and saw my flesh through my shoe. Odd right? 🤔

That’s when it hit me, I had been wondering for some time how my show had a hole in it, but didn’t connect it until, the hole in my sock and shoe lined up 😲

Anyway, the point of this sorry, is that I need to cut my toenails more regularly to avoid continuing to do this. I would really love to have holeless socks 🤣

I went to get my toenail clippers from where they would normally be if my house was in any kind of order, which it is not..

I reminded myself that I never look for things properly, so I need to slow down, but then I realised the right thing to do was tidy the top draw of the bedside table while I was looking for something ☺️

But then I started writing this post and now I’m surrounded by a mess and exhausted

😅

Thankfully it’s only 7:10 pm

Update: I have tied the top draw. I have even made space for my hairbrush and comb, which, I have never kept in my drawer before.

My hair has been a major handful lately. Usually matted or heaps of knots in it. I always give it a good brushing before I get in the shower to try and help minimise how tangled it is when get out. Not something I’m used to to be honest.

Yet, right now, the only other times I can think of purposefully brushing my hair is getting out of the shower and when I’m driving somewhere, say, uni or work. Well, on any longish sort of drive, I always end up brushing my hair. I don’t know why. But it’s no wonder it’s always knotty these days 😆 How interesting 🤔

I still haven’t found my toenail clippers or my appetite. Though, the second one, I really need to do something about. I am only making my life harder for myself by not eating properly.

Please do not take after me, dear reader. I am writing in a premium paid for personal website, to a) help keep myself sane, and b) hopefully in some small way help you see that we are all unique messes in our way. Some are better than others at hiding it that’s all.

My purpose in life is to share. Yet, believe it or not, the exact of how I share now is nothing on what is buried deep within me.

Right now though, in 3D, down here as a human living on earth, my biggest lesson is to learn how to trust myself. Completely. How to recognise and follow my intuitive thoughts. I have been recognising them for some time now, it truly is like seeing the future a few seconds ahead of time when your intuition is as heightened as mine is, it’s just that, I currently have no follow-through, due to the aforementioned second guessing of myself. Multiple times in the past two days really stand out to me.

I’ve just seen that it’s 8:02 pm. I am almost ready to go to sleep but I know I won’t be able to sleep until I eat. I guess I just have a lot I want to say.

Perfect real time example of second guessing myself “I guess I just have a lot I want to ‘say’ / ‘talk about’ / ‘share’ / back to ‘say’” …

The amount of hours I waste in a day are many …. mayne that’s why the movie I watched on Netflix last night “Paradise” was even more trippy for me ..

Goodnight everyone x

8:08 pm