Juice rang at 6:33 am to wake me up. I stayed in bed cuddling Boss for maybe 10 minutes before quickly jumping out of bed to turn the heat on and unlocked the door, before jumping back into bed 😝

I got up at 7 when he arrived and immediately made us both coffee. Once again I didn’t eat breakfast when I first got up, which resulted in not eating for a while 🤦‍♀️

I got called in the morning the morning to help out and that took a few hours. I’m still not myself when discussing rates. Very much doing my head in. Juice seems to think it’s because I want to avoid conflict.

This is not something I had thought of myself since I’ve never had a problem with conflict in the past, yet, when he said it today, on the phone, on his drive home, it completely registered 🙏

It’s it same feeling I get when I think of certain situations that can trigger me, and how I will react feeling like this. I just don’t have the energy anymore. Until I figure out how to explain myself articulately, I am happy to keep to myself for the greater peace 😇

I’m exhausted, lost track of myself and rambling 🤣

Goodnight Everyone xx

8:55 pm

Published | 9:22 pm