Thankfully, as is usually the case, I am feeling better since seeing my psychologist. I filled her in on getting a new car, talking to my father, my mother finally admitting she doesn’t believe that all my health conditions I live with are real, and needing to get Webster packs from the pharmacy.

This is because I have somehow made “pillbox day” as I like to call it, which is when I need to fill my weekly medication pillbox with the list of meds that I take, with such a negative feeling, it really is too easy to not do it when it needs to be done and miss a day of meds, i.e., yesterday, since they weren’t readily available and I felt flat. I have since filled them while talking to Juive this morning.

I don’t feel happy or sad just neutral, which is a positive. Actually typing this out is helping me feel better which is nice. The sun is shining onto my bed, well, now it’s behind a cloud lol, but I have uni work to do and things to do, most importantly, calling my gas and electricity provider because they increased all of their rates as of the 1st of July. If you are in Australia and currently use AGL, I highly recommend you check your bill that arrives after this date has commenced.

I nearly cried in JB HI-FI today but managed to hold it together. Mostly. I obviously can’t see myself as me except for when I watch my videos, but I am obviously not only extremely easy to read due to my facial expressions, but I must emit my inner feelings through my energy far more than I’d like when feeling as anxious as I did today at JB Hi-Fi. Especially since there was no reason to be feeling the way I was. I managed to snap out of it to a degree before the interaction ended, and even managed to have a laugh and even shared the details to this channel and my website with the guy, since as he was going through the paperwork, we talked about what it was I bought the camera for.

To recap, for those unaware, I purchased a Sony ZV1 camera in January this year because I want to start creating better-quality videos. I will always make spontaneous videos whenever the urge hits me, but I would really like to set up an area in my home with a camera, microphone and speakers. I want to live stream. I keep saying it for a reason, it’s just that, I also know is not something I want to jump into blindly.

As most of you know, the Sony camera has overwhelmed me from the moment I got it and realised that I had forgotten one really important thing when purchasing it. I had no idea it would be so complicated to use. Though, in all fairness, that is more likely a “me” thing, and the camera could be easy to learn for others. I mean, I have managed to learn enough to make a video and transfer it with the cable to my laptop. I will admit, the other day at my mechanic’s, while Michael was talking to a customer, I tried to take a bunch of photos yet kept making videos instead. Figuring out what I was doing wrong, and how to take an actual picture and not a video took far longer than I think it should have lol

Anyway, this past week I have been really excited to use my camera, now that I have a better understanding of what to do and how to transfer it so that I can upload them to my channel. I mean, I live on disability so it was definitely an important thing to me to have spent $1100 purchasing the camera, tripod/handgrip, 128g SD card, and three years extra full replacement warranty.

So, I was really bummed when the camera randomly turned itself off when making a video a few days ago. I immediately googled and many options came up about what is obviously a well known problem. I did exactly what the Sony support website said to do and removed the battery, set a timer for 3 minutes (it said 1, but I thought maybe it will help) and then put it back in. It worked and I was so happy!! Until it did it again. Not even 10 minutes later. I took the battery out, put it back in, and it turned on briefly, long enough to take a couple of random pictures to check if it was actually working. It appeared so, and so I started making my video. Believe me, nothing bubs me out more than making a video and either it doesn’t work, there’s no sound, or in this case, the camera turned itself off as I was making a video, but this time, taking the battery in and out didn’t help at all. I went to put on charge but not even that was working anymore.

I tried several times over the next few days to see if the camera would even charge but since it wouldn’t, I decided to take it back for a refund. I thought it would be quite simple. It was not. It has to be sent away to be assessed by Sony, before anything else can happen. Makes perfect sense, yet, I was feeling so emotional while in the store, (I definitely didn’t consciously feel emotional before I went into the store) it started when I was told they couldn’t automatically refund me. Again, no clue why.

I run out of characters, that’s never happened before hahaha

2:56 pm