I’ve checked my history and the last video of mine that I had been watching is “Day???: 10th June 2023 |Part 2 | I’m exhausted and now all of a …” is what I can currently see 🤭

So, I’m starting where I left off. It currently says [watched] 15:44 – [remaining] hahaha it’s actually the total length of the video it would appear since the other number 30:33 has not changed since turning the video on. My god am I wasted in this video. I look and sound fucked, even to myself 🤣

Meh. As I keep saying. I am just one little person trying to stay as sane as possible lol

I am finally feeling like myself again and watching and listening to what I’m saying, I love it when I am hearing exactly what I need to hear and see in the exact perfect timing ☺️

Hmm actually it depends on how I hold the camera because I think I look ok at some points 😎😆

I had my first shift back at work today and I’m so happy about it. Being cooped up for four weeks has sucked 😒

I spoke too soon earlier. My pain has just hit me all at once, especially my rib. I totally forgot to take it out of the car while I was out and obviously not while driving. My doctor doesn’t want me driving at all but with this new car it’s so much easier. Especially for work. I have just put my sling on now, since my doctor really did say that I must wear the sling at all times aside from limited driving. I haven’t been. I forget or use it anyway, but have now truly seen how ridiculous that is on my part.

It really does feel like I have been a kid, for  however long, living alone, mostly isolated from others, trying to look after myself yet not understanding why. Yet today, I had thought, like it smacked me on the forehead …

“So, if your doctor told you to wear the sling at all times, except for the very rare times when you need to drive yet your not … what? Because you can’t be bothered? You think it’s pointless, yet your doctor has been clear since day dot. So … why aren’t you wearing the sling?”

The next thought straight after that was “that’s what you’d say to anyone else and you wouldn’t accept some crappy ego excuse, yet, you don’t discipline yourself. You don’t treat yourself how you would treat yourself around other people. Why?”

Or words to that effect 😅😆

Anyway, it’s 5:29 pm and it’s my neighbour’s 30th birthday and she’s having drinks tonight which I’m going to. I stopped by the bottle store on the way home from work and picked up two boxes of Smirnoff Ice Red 4x bottles, my favourite easy premix drink. Today, I was in such a great mood being back at work with my client,  that I ended up buying two random boxes of premixes each one different. They were on the counter on sale for $10 each 🤣

Drinks start at 6 pm. I am sitting on my bed with my curtains partway open and can see directly into the neighbour’s front lawn, driveway and the living room window, which currently has colourful fairy lights on. Very handy indeed to be able to see when people start arriving. I’m just so glad the rain stopped. It was brief and a full-on downpour 🌧

I’m going to sort out my paperwork for today, add the rest of the medication I needed to pick up for my pillbox and then go smoke another bong and then come back to my room to continue catching up on watching myself and rest for a bit before heading over across the street 🤗☺️

I’ve just seen car pull up. I’m going to message the neighbour and let them know people can park on my front lawn and driveway 🚙

5:43 pm

UPDATE: 5:52 PM | I reopened this upon remembering that I hadn’t added any of the pictures that I had taken. But instead have seen that I completely skipped telling you what I’m doing, or, trying to learn 😳 though now that Ive actually typed that sentence, it seems it’s apparent 😅

More cars have arrived across the street 😁

I sent this to the birthday girl …

I’m watching “Day 531: 13th June 2023 | So, I missed a couple of days 😅”. Videos like this one are the one’s I like the most since I’m actually learning something useful about myself ☺️🥰

Although, I think I really need to learn how to hold off on having opinions about things I haven’t rven finished. Thats definitely another thing that I do. I am 3:56 minutes into a 18:56 minute video 😅😂

I don’t want to be rude and do across road too late, so, I am going to wrap this up now Whatever pictures I wanted to add will just have to wait. My pain levels are soaring. I was so silly and didn’t think ahead of time to now, in this moment, and I wore a pair of high healed [solid] will add picture, and even though they are so comfortable to wear and what i had planned to wear tonight but no longer want to risk it, or basically just can’t due to pain in my back, so, my point being I still need a few minutes just to lie down and do literally nothing but watch the end of this video before getting up and going across the road ☺️

6:22 pm