I feel super duper happy.

No you don’t.

You feel no different to yesterday.

Well, now that’s not true. *

Yesterday I became upset after hearing from my sister.

Actually, upset is not the wrong word. I became extremely emotional because I love my sister and her family, but I know I’m hard work. I am me, so, believe me, I know.

I miss my sister but I get we needed a break.

I’m just rambling now.

I need to stay zen according to my doctor.

I have so much on my mind but for once I don’t feel that I’m should how…

see overthinking now

Time to put my phone away now.

To my sister, I love you. Thank you ♡

9:16 pm

Update: Before hearing from my sister which for some reason opened the flood gates again, I had mostly just been sleeping, staring at the ceiling or watching Netflix. Feeling nothing more than anything. Aside from the past few days looking at cars, that is. I had a realisation on the drive home, which took an hour and 20 minutes, that I was so exhausted and in so much pain by the time I got to the second place and been for a test drive and tried to keep up and understand what exactly was in the warranty. But I am so spaced out by this point that when I asked what deal he was willing to do, I agreed to it without counteracting. Or, more technically, I wanted to call and ask about the insurance and I don’t know, I just didn’t think. I remembered it again and why I’m making a note of it. I am ok.

I have decided I’m so close to passing out that that is what I’m going to do.

I feel tired and sore here in 3D but higher up I’m feeling really connected and it’s exactly what I need. I am going to sleep.

10:10