I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

Everyone in my life treats me like I am the cause of everything that is wrong. I am not good enough as I am.

I am mentally unwell. It affects me.

I haven’t been able to get out of bed for two days.

I am trying to focus on the good in my life but this feeling of being so alone, that I have one no who could stay with me. My brother keeps telling me to get a housemate or friend to move in. Like I didn’t ask everyone I know when I was first told my rib was broken. I can’t live with a stranger and it turns out I don’t have as many friends as I thought, and absolutely none who were willing to come stay with me.

He also made sure to let me know that I need to apologise to my sister yet as far as I’m concerned I have never spoken to him about what happened between us.

All I know is that I now know exactly how my family feel about me. In my eyes, I am just a sad pathetic freak to them. To everyone really.

I still might just shut these sites down and drift off into the nothingness that is my mind.

Only one person cared enough to check if I was alright. I am glad someone checked.

I’m hoping that I wake up feeling better tomorrow so that I can get on with my life. I pray I wake up ok, because I’m struggling to hold back tears as I type this.

7:07 pm