Days 536 – 538 | Experiencing a Bipolar Rapidly Cycling state according to my doctor who I saw on Monday the 19th of June. I haven’t felt like it matters if I make a video or not, since no one has even checked on me.

Until this evening. My sister messaged me to check if I am ok. When I asked why, she said she noticed that I hadn’t posted anything in the past few days and wanted to check on me. I honestly can’t explain how happy this has made me even though I cried a lot.

I am definitely going through something that feels new and scary and going through it while feeling completely alone has me questioning my place on this planet. I truly thought sharing was what I was supposed to do and yet in the past few days, not sharing has left me completely alone so now I don’t know what I’m going to do.

It’s 6:33 pm and I have spent the past two days in bed.

At least my rib is healing. Now I only need to wear the sling. Days 536 – 538 | Experiencing a Bipolar Rapidly Cycling state according to my doctor who I saw on Monday the 19th of June. I haven’t felt like it matters if I make a video or not, since no one has even checked on me.

Until this evening. My sister messaged me to check if I am ok. When I asked why, she said she noticed that I hadn’t posted anything in the past few days and wanted to check on me. I honestly can’t explain how happy this has made me even though I cried a lot.

I am definitely going through something that feels new and scary and going through it while feeling completely alone has me questioning my place on this planet. I truly thought sharing was what I was supposed to do and yet in the past few days, not sharing has left me completely alone so now I don’t know what I’m going to do.

It’s 6:33 pm and I have spent the past two days in bed.

At least my rib is healing. Now I only need to wear the sling.