I’m not even sure why I said it. I think it’s tied to feeling guilty. But I’ve since realised that it’s entirely up to you dear viewer whether you watch my videos 💯

I really don’t like sounding like I’m complaining a lot, that is very much true, but I am genuinely not coping well alone dealing with this. It’s not only the pain but everything that is being affected by it like my breathing for example 😵‍💫

But sometimes I am just going to have to express how bad I am feeling because nothing is helping. I was so dumb in the bath too after I made this video I decided I just wanted to wash up and get out if I wasn’t going to be able to relax, but of course I decided to try and see if I could somehow lie to get my chest under the water. I managed to but really wish I hadn’t been stupid enough to try. Now I can hear in my head – don’t call yourself stupid 🤦‍♀️

These videos and our little community it sometimes feels like, are so important to me. I love hearing from you all and getting that extra feeling of connection through here and my website https://lifesastory.blog/

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