I seriously wish there was somewhere I could check myself in for help. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t scared. I am very scared that I am making it worse 😢

The lump is bigger and often the pain feels stronger than ever. There have been numerous times when I have seriously considered calling an ambulance but then I always tell myself I’m overreacting and that I can deal with whatever is happening myself 😧

I really want to start studying this week. Even only I’m only doing one unit, if you have been following along for long enough you may have seen my videos during the last few trimesters, even one unit can stress me out. I want to get through the last two I have as calmly as possible 💗

I will say this, I keep getting this feeling that my psychologist might tell me that having a broken rib means that I need to rest for however long until returning to study. I hope it’s just in my head though because I am so ready to be done. I have worked incredibly hard over the past seven years and I am ready to graduate so I am focusing on the good and reminding myself that I can do this 🤓

Plus I really need to focus on something other than how much pain I am in. I thought I knew what excruciating pain was but I was wrong. This is a pain like nothing I’ve experienced before. Only this time, the pain meds and weed are only taking the slightest edge off it, leaving me honestly feeling like I could cry with every move 😭

8:15 pm