The July tickets just seemed so far away and the 24th of May is such an important day to me that it only made sense that I cancel my psychologist appointment, which, I still have to do, and go and see my favourite show in the whole world, live.

Every performance is a new experience in itself. This is not the first time I will be attending the same live show, three different times. I am honestly just so excited 😃🤗🥳

Back to taking the oil ten minutes ago, I am experiencing a feeling in my gut that I am not enjoying. I’m not sure if it’s related or if it’s just my insides fucking with me like usual. It could very well be the later, come to think of it, because I’m still having issues with my digestive system and my period pain and ovulation cramps and everything just seems to be rolling in together which is not fun. It’s actually at the point where I have booked an appointment to go see my doctor next Thursday in person.

Unfortunately though, right at this moment, at 9:18 am, I honestly feel like I could vomit and am truthfully hoping that I don’t. The new taste of the oil hasn’t helped either 😵‍💫

I honestly do have heaps to do. Nothing majorly important but I would like to break down all the cardboard boxes to put them in the recycling bin this week. I also have rubbish that won’t fit in my normal weekly rubbish bin since I didn’t manage to get my bins out last Sunday due to staying in bed all day. Andrew has said I can use his, which I am very grateful for ☺️

I was going to make a video before I started writing this, but, I think I will wait until a bit later when hopefully how I’m feeling goes away. I started feeling like this after taking the oil but it won’t start working for at least a couple of hours so I have no idea what is going on 😅

I feel incredibly lucky and blessed that I can treat myself to seeing The Rocky Horror Picture Show live in Melbourne on three different occasions ☺️

As most of you will know if you follow my stories, I fell in love with Rocky Horror and specifically Dr. Frank N. Furter when I first watched the movie with my Mum at the age of 9 years old. I have been obsessed with it ever since. I am now 37 years old 😁

I now own multiple copies of the DVD, these two are in my bedside table. Heaven forbid one didn’t work 😆 It was great when Netflix added the movie to the list but it was removed shortly after, which, I and I’m sure other fans were not happy about 😒

Speaking of Frank, some of you may also recall that I am trying to find a particular picture of him so that I can get a life-size cardboard cutout of him, to see if that will help with needing a body double to achieve things when I’m by myself. I still have not as yet found the particular picture that I want, though, not from lack of trying. I just searched my photo gallery and these came up 😆

This particular picture ⬇️ is already available to buy as a cardboard cutout, but, it just does nothing for me. I need to feel connected for this to work. This is why, simply going to any library, alone, isn’t the answer, as much as I wish it was so simple.

It’s moments like these, where I know exactly what I need to help me, that remind me I end to get my ass into gear regarding applying for citizenship once I am able. I still want to look into dual citizenship also.

In regards to yesterday, which, I will explain more about in the video, I am not at all happy with how the massage appointment went, and upon discussing what happened with someone, feel like I was being gaslit exactly like it felt at the time. Thankfully, on the bright side of meeting another energy drainer, I am learning more and more about who I can and can’t give the details to my sites. People like him, or anyone I meet going forward who is potentially going to be in my life in some sort of capacity, won’t be told about them, at least not at first. I think this is what my therapist was talking about regarding how close or connected I am when first meeting me.

What’s perplexing me the most right now though, is, trying to remember when it was that I stopped standing up for myself and became some sort of people-pleasing pushover. I don’t like it. I am sick of second-guessing myself in moments when I know exactly what is going on. But I am so aware of this now so I have faith I am doing all that I can to help myself.

Right now, I am going to look for a new true crime limited series to put on while I look into what I need to do to apply for residency in Australia. Fill my pillbox and then cut the cupboard lol 😅😆

It’s still so early. I’ve been regularly waking up all week between 7 and 7:30 am! I feel good, happy and peaceful overall and it’s a very lovely feeling 🥰

Oh, and the oil started working lightly and appropriately at 10:20 am. It is a nice body feeling, very different to the vape. I will be taking more, however, I have not as yet decided on the time. I’ll update that later ☺️

11:09 am