And it started working at the perfect time, considering I accidentally sent a photo of two of my scripts next to each other in a picture, which includes all of my private information on. Because I did not feel the effects of the dosages I took throughout yesterday, today I decided to start with 0.8mls at 9 am. At approximately 10:40 am I started to feel the nice calming body relaxing feeling start.

Regarding sending the wrong picture, I saw it coming, or something similar, so oddly enough, I feel good. Definitely not anxious. It feels more like a little test of my faith in humanity. I mean that was just as big a part as any of the others that started this journey for me.

I think that is what I have been forgetting lately. Why I started this journey and a journey it is, which I knew it would be way back then. But I get stuck in my head, and finding out that I actually can’t do barely anything without help or just the presence of another person there, that has absolutely f*cked with me.

The overthinking and anxiety over how long it seems to take me to grasp things, learn lessons, or, just do everyday ordinary “normal/no need to think about it” stuff is exhausting, because, I want to do everything I dream of.

So, I continue on this path and hold on to the overriding belief that people are kind and caring and want to do the right thing, even if they sometimes go a strange way to show it. This is what I am doing since accidentally sending a complete stranger all of my personal information earlier, and am now waiting for them to see the messages and delete it since customer service let me know that once it’s sent it can’t be deleted.

It is now 12:07 pm. I took 0.5mls at 12 pm. Now to start making the phone calls I need to. I want to get all the paperwork I need to apply for citizenship when the laws change on the first of July this year.