And on the day I had told myself I would be a more professional version of myself starting today and moving forward, because Mandy’s email really has, unfortunately, bought back all of my insecurities when it comes to doing this work. She reprimanded me and spoke down to me also every time we spoke but to take what said to her as my friend and then speak to me in a way like I am her employee when I’m not.

I had her no over and over

I AM GOING TO LOSE MY FUCKING MIND!!

🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

Reminding myself to breathe………

7:20 pm