She said thank you. Told me she does love me but confirmed she doesn’t want me in her life.

I feel so sad. Nothing has changed and yet all I keep feeling is.. my own mum doesn’t want me inn her life, it’s no wonder I don’t have any real deep in person friends 😥

I have barely achieved anything today even though I got up at 7:35 am. I honestly just kept drawing a blank  on my assignment so in the end have walked away from it.

Now I am lying on my bed 17 minutes into a movie I saw years ago ‘Just Like Heaven’. I figure it’s a nice easy watch which I need given how much I keep crying 😢

I’m really starting to feel like a sad pathetic loser now. But I know that doesn’t help me in the slightest.