Andrew cared enough to come past twice to check on me. I cannot comprehend how much that truly means to me. He even let me cry my eyes on his shoulder, while he gave a hug. Which is exactly what I needed, since Boss keeps leaving me when I start crying 😢

I should clarify that this reaction isn’t all directly related to be dropped as a friend, but for the bullshit reason I was given.

Telling someone they have too much trauma to be friends with is honestly absolutely disgusting in my opinion. Especially when it is clear that when the family was all together for Easter Sunday that Nichele obviously saw Mel who runs the pet rescue, who has clearly bitched about me.

This reason is just ridiculous to me since I’m not the one running the dodgy resuce. I have obviously wanted to look more into after speaking with my vet, buy didn’t. Meaning I wasn’t true to myself for fair of losing my new friends. Fear is killing me. It goes against everything I believe in.

So I know I am better off. I was in a great place before I met this lying woman. I was happy before I met them, so am perfectly capable of getting back to that place of happiness.

I just think I am in shock that instead of actually telling the truth, she told me “you have to much trauma” for me to be your friend.

I have severe CPTSD so shit like this just sends me straight back to being a child, and being told I wasn’t worth the air I breathe 😢

But I guess this shit is going to keep happening until I figure out how to not let it affect me.