I guess I have also realised that I use weed, food and tv and my major comfort mechanism. Probably that makes sense.

I’ve started writing a letter to my therapist, listing how I feel, both now and in general. This involves being easily startled and extremely jumpy.

Hopefully, at least now the bugs have actually gone, because I very clearly need to actually make myself do what needs to actually use my meditation room 🧘‍♀️

I know one day I will get to a place where I don’t react in the moment. But to get there I have to feel myself. Turns out I just need to do it alone.

I imagine once I give up tv again I may end up going to bed early to sleep. Straight after dinner potentially for at least the first few days.

I’m going to reset myself. I definitely need to now really incorporate meditation into my daily routine.