Since I too, have now come around to the point of getting vaccinated, though I still very much think the mandates are ridiculous and a complete breach of power…

Hmm not where I was going with that. I am very much pissed off big picture, but right now I am perfectly fine and was actually planning on writing about how I really need to find a deep breathing exercise program or class, since I still just keep pausing and forgetting to breathe every once and awhile. It’s really not fun guys. No clue why it’s happening. Maybe to make me more mindful of my breathe and how shallow it currently is 🤷‍♀️ I don’t know but I figure I should do something about it 😅

I had accepted not getting the vaccine for a while. I really did have an overpowering feeling of just no in my head, heart and soul to the first lot of vaccine’s that came out. It was because of my own current health and I was perfectly ok with that, so had obviously accepted the consequences of what that meant. I’m fairly certain I have written about it before. I much prefer to be on campus than online. As it holds me more accountable to myself. But I was happy to go online in regards to the vaccines that kept giving me a negative gut reaction.

I’ve been saying for years now that I biggest number one lesson in this lifetime is to trust myself. To trust my gut. I have made more mistakes in my life than I can probably honestly remember. I have learnt all of my most profound, life altering, flip my entire world and belief system on it’s head, through the most darkest, most painful moments in my life. So when my reaction every time I thought about the vaccines, when everyone was on my case about it, and unfortunately a lot where, I stayed true to me and I’m glad I did.

But then this volunteer job happened. And it keeps changing and I started realising that I wasn’t having the same feelings anymore when I imagined getting vaccinated. Don’t get me wrong, I am still extremely pissed off and literally feel violated that we have to do this, but I do want to be able to attend events especially work related ones and would much prefer to be on campus for my classes when I start back in July.

So I messaged Rachel who was my number one friend pestering me about it for so long and asked her her advice. She then explained to me that the latest vaccine Novavax was in the process of currently being rolled out. She said it is a different type of vaccine and is similar to the one’s most of us had as kids. I was at Nichele’s during this time so looked into it and called a number of different places who were doing covid vaccines but now of them had the Novavax one.

I decided to make a phone appointment with my doctor, but when I checked online she didn’t have any availability until the following week. I think I may have mentioned before that I have my doctors personal mobile number. Well at my appointment last Thursday I asked her if it was her personal personal number or like a second work back up number but it was definitely hers.

I am currently experiencing a sense of deyavu. I really do need to go back to the beginning and make brief notes for myself 😅 and figure out how to structure pages while I’m at it, since I have actually looked into adding a content page on here and it doesn’t seem to exist 🤷‍♀️

Anyway I spoke to my doctor the following day and she agreed that even though she completely understands still why I don’t want it for so many reasons, that if I am going to for the sake of being more free in a working environment, that te Novavax is the best. So as much as I don’t want it, I am going to get it 😕

If anyone of you watched, or read my description, my specialist appointment today went extremely well!! I am so happy with it all 🙂

I ordered two Ruby T25 30ml bottles at $90 each, two Little Green Pharma 50ml bottles at $295 each and one 10 gram flower of Pink Kush at $149 then express postage with insurance is $16.  $935 it cost today 😆 Prescribed cannabis product costs all add up and I’m not even totally sure how long it will last, but as my last video shows I already have prescription stuff left over as it is, plus I want to stop vaping. Though knowing I have my doctor still ensuring me vaping is fine in the evenings, I think I’ll look into timered lockable containers again to put the vape in. I really do need the extra help 🤣 I really do want to stop when I’m actually at school if I haven’t learnt how to keep it to the evenings only.

Though obviously if I can get to a routine where I have worked out the best times and amounts to take everything, that would be fantastic. Especially if that involves pretending my vape doesn’t exist until I am completely done for the day. My computer is off, and I’m getting into bed. If I can do all that and keep vaping until the evening, that would obviously be the optimum goal 😄

I joined Canna Reviews like my doctor suggested and it is like every stoner’s dream come true. All the flower bud, cbd and thc oil, endless edibles, I’m sure you get the picture 😂

This is going to be super interesting! 😆 I am so excited to try this!!! I have never tried a high thc oil before. If you watch my daily video, you will see that 1ml of this Ruby oil is the equivalent of three recreational dosages of thc! 😱🤣 So I have to start low at 0.1ml to begin with. Increasing from 0.1 to 0.3mls a day 😅🙂

I am also to take 1ml morning and night for the cbd oil below..

I definitely need to use as prescribed for the best effects obviously 🙄 50 mls at 2mls a day means 25 days of medication at the cost of $295 plus postage. Ah what a world we live in 😑😒

It really does change me a lot though so I think I will play around with the dosage a bit as I don’t want to completely lose my spark, as that’s what makes me me. It would also be great if I found a lower dosage that works well for me, making the length of time to use each 50ml bottle a bit longer 😅

Since I am going to trial using the thc and cbd oils throughout the day and continue to vape minimally in the evening, I went ahead and ordered the best prescription weed I’ve ever tried, that is for evening use, when I’m ready to completely unwind. I am prescribed two 10g containers a month, but since I already have some left, I only got one. Turns out, according to Canna Reviews, the current Pink Kush 25% THC has been discontinued and replaced with a 22% kind.

Here’s something funny 😄 I have been writing this blog for some time now. Not totally sure how long or why it appears like far more time has gone past given this blog is long, but not that long, I don’t think. But anyway, I picked up my phone to write a blog about looking on the bright side of getting vaccinated and for me, besides anything work related, that is being able to find and join classes that I know will deeply benefit me. The first thing I want to look into is breathing or relaxation classes of some kind…

While typing this blog, I have received an email from the company I volunteer at..

I absolutely love yoga! It is incredibly good for breathing exercises too!! Plus it’s being held in a park!! Though Grant did tell me that since I’m booked in for the vaccine that allows me into some more places but I’m not sure about that 🤔

Anyway I am so happy about this! Especially since I was at the online meeting, so knew it was happening at some point, I just didn’t know where it was going to be held, as that is obviously impacted by not being currently vaccinated but again I don’t know, but if it was being held indoors in a studio, I wouldn’t go 🤷‍♀️

Jesus it’s 7:42pm. I have no idea where the evening has gone 😆 But I haven’t watched last night’s MAFS episode, nor made or eaten dinner. I really do feel like I have been writing this for ever lol think I might check the word count just for curiosity sake and update it later 😂

I haven’t even published it at all yet and it’s now 8:25pm. I’m truly not sure what is happening but I really think I should push publish now 😆

Quickly before I do that, I want to show you how much I’m prescribed of flower. This is only for the evening. I am prescribed the same amount for the day time strain too. Believe me, if I actually smoked this much a day, I would achieve absolutely nothing 😬😵‍💫