It’s moments like these where I am really grateful I live alone. I have been watching the clock, seriously contemplating making a video from right here 🤣 But I won’t 😆

Yet, I have been here for a number of minutes now. My insides are all messed up. My bowels as much as my bladder are screwed. But hopefully some of that can be helped .. because seriously, I’ve been in here for ages … time: 5.51pm

It’s now 9.14pm. This is the third time I have now been in so much pain and stuck on the toilet.

My insides (and outsides and every sides) really do mess with me. I would absolutely love to know what “normal” feels like, if only for a few minutes.

This is chronic constipation caused by numerous things. I always thought being constipated meant you can’t go but it also means going numerous times a day in a really slow painful way. Not currently sure how else to explain it truthfully.

Oh and don’t forget my spamsing bladder that I pick up the medication for tomorrow.

Everything hurts so I’m having a winge which is exactly what I pay to have this website for 😫😂