This show is really good but hard to follow if you stop paying attention for even a few minutes 😆

I am pleased though that I feel like me again which is nice. But still look forward to the days where I completely “keep my shit together” 😬

I really hate making people feel bad because I can’t always explain what I am feeling logically when I am far too emotionally heightened at the time. But I do actually have my reasons because I actually want to align with what I believe in.

Anyway, I want to keep watching until I fall asleep but I’m pretty tired already since I figured there was no point in taking dexamfetamine at all today given I just wanted to relax and let my body unwind from all the tension.

I know what I have to do. I just have to implement it. As I’ve said before, I’m a pro at removing things from my life that no longer benefit me, but fuck I stuck at implementing new stuff and having it actually stick, is currently still not quite within my reach. Yet even i can hear the language with which I speak.

Gosh I am so tired all of a sudden.

I now think it’s time to go to sleep.

9.18pm