10:47 AM

Feeling good.. teeth brushed, pills taken, and even a quick freshen up on a quote on my wall I’m not even sure if I’ve shared before..

People treat me like I’m invisible, unworthy of having the truth told, or being able to completely sweep me under the rug. People become as defensive and as well easily angered as I am for a reason.

But I really want to just focus on love, gratitude, contentment and all things good, especially all the people who are in my life who do bring positive high vibrations to mine. I know that may sound mean in itself given some of my most recent posts, but I’m too tired to try and explain.

If I’ve loved you, then, I still love you, it’s just that I am now at a place where each day just keeps showing me how true I need to be to me meaning I can’t actually have people in my life if what they do in their own private life is so against what I believe in. Because it does affect me. Obviously. I cried watching my second video from yesterday back. I am fine now but that’s besides the point. I don’t want shit like that in my life. Though I have now at least figured out how to logically explain it.

I just got interrupted when I was writing it in my notes to ensure I explained myself logically without emotion like I needed to for what happened yesterday. Interrupted by a video call I initially wanted to decline. Thankful at least it happened over the phone not while I was unable to drive home that’s for sure …

Oh bugger.. I opened Boss sog door like.an idiot and now he’s out there barking again. I want to go to sleep but now have to go get him in first.