My level of awareness around the fact I genuinely have more energy in the evening than the day, is now very clear to me. Yet I over ride it by vaping more weed and then binge watching Netflix. Resulting in me having the realisation that I will have to remove my last tv and stop trying to set myself to the clock when it just doesn’t work for me, since this is probably the only way I am going to achieve what I want to.

Right now I am clearly self sabotaging. I guess out of fear of failure. Easier to keep something a dream if you never actually go for it properly..

But this is now so important to me that I think I just have to completely suck it up and do something I never would have believed I could have even contemplated in the past.. and that is remove my bedroom tv so that I can completely absorb myself in my school work.

But first I need to check when MAFS ends first 🤣 the level of connectedness talking with everyone in the live discussion happening on the MAFS_AU page every evening is honestly just so lovely.

Oh and I thought I should note, I am was in fact wearing the same dress as yesterday, today, which is why I look the same in so many videos up until this one. But my back is still bandaged up and will be until I take it off before shower in the morning 😅

Goodnight everybody 💞🥰😴