This roller-coaster of emotions is honestly so heartbreaking and painful which is why I am going to keep talking to my camera..

If talking it out to myself helps me remember to do things like take my meds and help me calm down long enough to see that I am worthy regardless of what my mother and family think of me than it’s worth it.

I have self harmed twice in 21 days .. this is not something I ever want to do again 😢