The older I get, I swear the slower I get. At everything 🤭 thankfully I am now feeling so much more aligned with my path, higher purpose and self, I understand that there is no rush for anything. Everything happens in divine timing.

Yet knowing all this doesn’t help slow down how fast everything is in my mind, and obviously everywhere else, since people constantly feel the need to say “just relax” or “calm down” “why are you so stressed” and other variations of that kind. What none of these people understand though, and how cold they, is that, almost all of times Ive had that said to me, I, myself personally have felt calm. So it drives me insane. And I can’t help but think at times when people say it.. “you have no clue what you are talking about.. if you think this is me stressed out, I would hate for you to see what it actually looks like”

I honestly forget I’m prescribed valuim a lot of the time so don’t usually remember to take one before I’ve already become more emotionally heightened in some way or another. I am prescribed it for a reason. As my new very expensive psychiatrist said the end of last uear when I met him for the first time… “you are far too complex for me to only see you once, so I will need you to make a few follow-up appointments”. I never wanted to go in the first place since I absolutely love my psychologist, but apparently ADHD is the only mental health illness in Australia that a psychologist can’t diagnose. The official diagnosis must come from a psychiatrist. It costs $450 for each appointment which I must pay in full. I then get a rebate from medicare but I’m still out of pocket over $250 each time. But according to the rest of my medical support team I need the official diagnosis.

So I have popped a little note on my laptop to help remind myself before becoming too overwhelmed by anything everywhere and how slow i feel like I am at anything..

Ok, I am going to stop typing and finish printing so I can heat up my leftover pasta for dinner and go relax in my room watching a bit of ‘You Me Her’. Think this may be the third time I’ve watched it but it’s really good, and I feel brain dead 😝 so definitely don’t have the energy for anything I need to pay attention to 😴

Oh and I literally had to get up and dry the sweat off my chair and my legs 🥵😖