I definitely feel better than yesterday, but still feel flat. And what’s even stranger is that, I don’t think I felt like this when I woke up…

Absolutely nothing has happened. I woke at 6.30am like I last post said, and have been reading off and in while I chat with my uni friend Graham. He is my friend doing the same degree as me, and who I plan to start studying with next week. Other than that, just said hi to mum and recommended Manifest on Netflix to watch, as I started it last night and am really enjoying it.

Yet, it’s 10.44am now, and the only thing I’ve really done is make bed and sit on top of it with blanket, along with making 4 cups of coffee.. oh and I did read back one of the posts I wrote yesterday as I had sent it to Graham last night but then removed it.. yet its nothing I don’t already know, so why am I feeling this way?

Being a human being seriously sucks sometimes.

I actually have plenty to do. I’ve had washing in the machine for now 3 days, meaning they need to be rewashed before hanging on the clothes horse, though, I still have to first remove and fold the washing already on it. I only managed to vacuum half of the house the other day and 2 nights ago I took vegan mince out of the freezer to make pasta, but still haven’t, so definitely need to cook it today. I also have heaps of uni printing and binding to do. Oh, and I would also very much love a bath. .

But as it currently stands.. all of that just seems too hard.. I know I have to pull myself out of this.. my life is good.. I am grateful… I am doing the best I can…

I’m just reminding myself of these things, as I continue to sit here on my bed, not reading, not watching Netflix or talking to anyone… just sitting here