If you have watched any of the daily videos in the past few days, you will know that I started writing a blog on the 31st December, to let out the emotions that I was feeling at the time. I am not sure why I did not post it at the time, but, I think it was becauuse I thought it wasn’t finished.

Well, I’ve been thinking about my birthday, the people I invited and why, what happened the following day, and who I believe will actually still be in my life when I turn 37. So, yesterday, I went back to read what I had written, and to finish it off, so I could post it and then move on in my life. Yeah, I am clearly one of those people, who needs to get whatever I’m thinking or feeling out of me, to be able to get on with my life. Thankfully, given where I’m at in my life and what I believe is real and true, I am happy to share basically everything about myself, because I can empathise with so many people, and if anything I share, helps even one person, than I am am surving my purpose in life. To help others, by telling stories.

I am very much there for all of the people in my life, and will do what I can to help anyone. This, however, does not mean, that I think everyone we meet or befreind in our lifes, will be in our lives forever. As is the case wih what happened on new years eve.

To help put the post into context, I will breifly explain, that I met Sirri doing the Certificate 4 in Alochol and Other Drugs. This is one of the free tafe courses available to study here in Australia, and since I don’t have any available free units left at university, I figured, I may as well do this too. Sirri, introduced herself as an alcoholic, though the majority of the class identified as being either in AA or NA, on the first day when we all introduced ourselves. I found it really strange, but than again, I’m not the biggest fan of those meeting due to many different reasons. Anyway, we were in the same certificate and tafe friends. We talked on messenger and I definitely considered her a friend, though not one I had a lot of contact with once the tafe course had ended. Especially since covid came about midway through the 12 month course, which had started in August 2019, so the majority of the last 6 months was all online. I was completing this while studying at universtity at the same time. Talk about stressed out and no time for anything. Anyway, like I said, we only spoke randomly off and on since we completed the course in July 2020.

You might be asking yourself, then why did you invite her? The answer, honestly, is beause I basically invited everyone I knew, because I really just wanted to drink and smoke weed and have a great time and party, since the past couple of years have been shit. It did not end up being a party in the slightest. Which was great in the end, because by the time my birthday was actually here, I was utterly exhausted in everyway. I think also, because I have known for some time now that I don’t plan on hosting drinks/party on my birthday ever again, that, maybe on some level, I felt like it needed to be this be giant party, which is pure ego talking.

So in the end, my sister and her family came and stayed, my good friend Grant, my two philosohy friends, and the same people who came to the last couple of birthdays, who I know from the volunteering job I did, teaching learners to drive, during my sober year of 2018. One of them, has been a good friend of mine, and was even my bubble buddy during some of lockdown, but, she has this partner, who in my opinion, is a jerk, and after the drinks I’ve just had, I don’t want to ever see him again, due to how rude he is. Weather is effects my relationship with my friend, is yet to be seen, but I have felt us driffing apart over the past six months anyway.

I have decided to post the actual blog written on the 31st December 2021, seperatly to this one, otherwise this blog will just be too long 🙂