Sian doesn’t read my messages..
I wonder how many other people in my life don’t read them too? Mr X I’m sure but now I realise there must be more. ..

I definitely need to learn how to speak more concisely, but wow, I’m still so shocked that a so called “friend” came back into my life, claiming she would do anything to prove she wants to be my friend and be in my life, only to find out she doesn’t even read what I say when we have a conversation via text. This is the same person who once told me she prefers talking to me via text because I monopolise conversations. I can definitely conceed to the fact that yes I am obviously a talker, but since starting university I have become extremely aware of how bad a listener I was when not extremely focused like when volunteering on national helpline job. So, I started actively working on my listening skills some years ago and I always made it a point to listen to her, she was just always more quiet back then. Maybe it was because she was totally sober, I don’t know. All I know is that the events that have transpired over the past few days have resulted in me realising once and for all that you truly can love and care for someone and wish they can be a part of your life, but unfortunately, there are just some people you have to let go of. Obviously, tell them. Ghosting is wrong on every single level as far as I’m concerned. Everybody at least deserves an explanation in my opinion 🤷‍♀️😅

It took a lot for me to get over the text vs in person comment. I mean, why would you want to be friends with me if that is your perception of how I act and that’s how I make you feel? I never want to make anyone feel bad or like they can’t talk to me. Yet I more past it, only to finally find out why we are never on the same page. I still don’t even know if she knows because to me it looks like she bas seen / read my messages and replied to them, yet I now very much know that’s probably not true.

Anywsy, I’ve been been trying to finish the same nosleep story on and off for 11 and a half hours now 🤣 boy am I finding that extremely funny 😆🤪

I’ve connected Netflix to tv in bedroom so am going to go lie down, finish this story then keep binge watching Mom since it’s so funny 😂