I wrote her back and she replied she’s not reading it and to leave her alone.

I should have known after she came here that allowing her in my life was a bad idea but I just didn’t want to lose her. I know it’s dumb but she’s my mum.

And now I’m a mess on the floor of my living room crying my eyes out because I know this is it. I have had to block her on everything.

I feel so worthless. Like I ruly am worth nothing, will never be good enough and that no one would care if I wasn’t here.

I called m good friend crying my eyes out amd he reminded me that people do care amd want me here but all I can feel is the deep emotional pain that comes from knowing I will probably never see or speak to my mum again.

And that thought makes me cry harder. Ive taken 2 valuim and some vape but this feeling is so deep, I’m scared of what it may causee to do to try and get rid of how bad I really feel 🥺