I have soooo much medical paperwork on file at university so shit like this doesn’t happen but ahhh fuck it right…

I’m honestly thinking this whole situation has occurred to not only helpe learn some more deep meeded lessons but to show me that yes, the Universe is deterministic. At least to sort extent because there is just no logical reason why any of this happening and why I am so past my breaking point in terms of pain and exhaustion that I literally can’t stop now until its basically done.

Rachel told me I’m being silly and need to sleep so I can start again fresh in the morning.. what she doesn’t seem to be understanding is that I am just so past that point because I am too wired and overwhelmed with what still needs to be done, and the clock doesn’t stop counting down just so I can sleep.

I would never ever intentionally put myself in this situation at uni. But like I’ve been saying in recent blogs this past week, I thought I had everyone’s support that I needed. Everything would have been submitted and I wouldn’t be in this really shitty situation barely able to focus (going in waves) but nowhere near having anything to actually submit. Pages of notes feom the readings I’ve done so far but I’m going to have to print those out once finished to actually try write the review part.

Time to stop complaining here and get back to this never ending/trying to kill me assignment 🥺