I am absolutely wrecked. So wrecked that this will have to be short as just holding phone and typing is a lot of energy right now..

I got up at 745 am and started reading a philosophy paper for my essay. By 10:30 am I was so exhausted I went to bed to have a nap. Set alarm for 11 am. Got up 11:20 am. Tried to read some more. Had something to eat. But am now lying on the couch.

I had a bong right before eating and then promptly forgot until it creep up on me as I was eating 🤦‍♀️😅

I’ve had both dexamfetamine pills that I’m supposed to but even they aren’t helping. I know this is what happens every time after I’ve had a busy few days or week, which I have.

Just writing this reminds me that it’s all ok. Everything will get done. It always does. I have a phone appointment with my doctor at 3 pm today, and I know that she will say what I need to learn how to accept it when I tell myself..

That I am doing enough. I have to rest when my mind and body needs it. I’ve done some work this morning and it’s only 1:03 pm. Who knows how I’ll feel later. But if it’s still like this then that’s ok.

In just the past two days I have completely spring cleaned my pantry, because I didn’t know what to eat. Cleaned my entire house, including vacuming. Changed the linen on my bed. Washed and hung out all the washing. Fold and put away dry washing. Showered and washed hair.Read a lot of philosophy and written a decent chunk of my paper. So, it’s no wonder I feel exhausted, given I live with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue.

Thankfully, once again, this blog has served it’s purpose. I feel better already. I absolutely deserve to lie down and watch an episode of the latest season of You. It’s not as good as the first two seasons but still interesting enough to want to watch. I am happy I never went ahead with removing my tvs like I had planned to. One day maybe but I need to learn how to exert self control in regards to how much I watch it, and I think I’m doing much better now.

Anyway my IC is still killing me, and this new symptom is becoming worse so hence speaking to my doctor today. Least now I feel better relaxing now until I speak to her.