And have only just realised, upon seeing it, that I did make a video about my mum in the first day I saw her.

I didn’t end on uploading the videos I made the next time I saw her because I got stuck in my head. Now I think I will.

I’ve also just realised that I need to actually watch these videos back after making them. The main point of all thisbis to help me figure me out. Like for example, i am watching the video back that I uploaded on the first day of seeing my mum, that I have changed my point of view on medicating and getting stoned. My mother was right in that regard its just took me longer to accept it because she comes at me on the attack. Hopefully that makes sense.

Before this trimester started, as mostvof you now know, I gave my bongs to my friend to look after. Only vaped lightly throughout each day and did not feel stoned until Saturday when I rolled a joint. I’d forgotten how much I love joints. Always preferred them to bongs so not totally sure why I changed..

Anyway I’ve been sitting outside writing this and my hands and restvof me is now freezing. Definitely time to jump into my nice warm bed and relax in front of the tv for a while.