So obviously I need to write it down. Or in this case, type it out. I’m going to keep this rather short for now, because the long of it, is very long, and I am way too tired to attempt to type that out right now..

For as long as I can remember, I have referred to myself as “we”, instead of me or I. As in two.

I was just in my bedroom getting ready for bed and was consciously saying this to myself. I think of me as we. me and her. There are two of us. At right at that time my television turned itself off. By itself.

So, yeah, it’s no wonder I think (and have been saying) that I need weekly therapy. I am so easily triggered sometimes, I’m finding it difficult to cope. Especially since I clearly do not have the support I need from my family. But right now, I feel calm as I write this out. I am about to turn everything off in the living room and go to my bedroom.

The weirdest thing for me though, I just thought I’d add, is that, I believe we are all one, so in that sense, I am fully whole within myself, so there’s only one of me. But I guess for now this is where I’m at, since I know that until I unpack a lot of shit, there’s only so much surface work I can do.

I’ve just realised I’m hungry. I have ingredients for vegan meat patty burger, so going to make that, take to my room to eat in front of tv, probably read reddit for a bit then pass out. Night world 🙂