With my electric blanket on its so cosy and warm.

Sometimes after a long day, and today was a long day, I just want to crawl into bed and get warmed up by my blanket that also helps with my pain levels.

I had my psychology appointment this morning at just after 9am. Via video. My poor psychologist is so beautiful she arranged to talk to me even though she is on maternity leave. The session went well.the advice that stuck with me the most..

“Always look for the grain of truth…”

She looked absolutely exhausted but is so bloody good at her good! ♡

Anyway then I drove 1.5 hours to my sisters place to pick up my mum to drive another hour to a shopping plaza. Then in the way home the gps takes us the back ways to obviously avoid the build up of traffic given we ended up leaving as peak traffic time was starting to grow..

But it lead us up the other side of the  mountain. This side is known as “the windys” as in, utterly terrifying to drive up this narrow, so many corners as we kept climbing, only on this side of the mountain, because we are on the left side of the road, there was a literal steep drop right next to us basically most of the way. It was dark and starting to very slightly spit (rain). I was driving like 15-20kms under the speed limit. A number of cars behind me.

But the thing is, I’ve driven this road twice before. Once because I was leaving my sisters and had made a new friend at the AOD (Alcohol and Other Drugs) Cert 4 I was doing. He lived in the main part of town, whereas my sister lives in the west part. So the first time was going down the mountain. Not as difficult since on this side there isn’t a sheer drop right next to you but a steep mountain ledge.

Anyway, second time I drove it was because I drove from my university and had no clue the gps would take me that way. Which is exactly what happened today. At least the first time up it was in the daylight.

I had a really nice time with my mum which was nice but right near the end of the drive back to my sisters she did something that made me feel completely dismissed and hurt. But I think I had another epiphany on the drive home, and that is, I honestly don’t know if she knows she is doing it. Like she truly just cannot understand that each of my sometimes severely debilitating conditions are hard enough without how many I have.

Today we were looking for a park at plaza, I have disabled parking. My mum is looking around for spots and then sees someone pull into disabled park and straight away she’s goes “that person’s not disabl.. I mean I don’t know, I guess people would say the same about you”.. these days I’m learning that sometimes it’s just better to say nothing at all and for this I am grateful..

I’ve been in bed for hours now. It’s so warm. I’ll be asleep very soon. Just want to post picture of my new piercings ♡ one of them is frickin bloody painful. My glasses frame ends directly on top of the back of the stud. Not wearing them now since I’m in bed on my phone and will probably be asleep very soon. I’ve driven for over 5 hours today. It’s no wonder I’m exhausted and every thing hurts. Peace Out ♡