I feels weirdly anxious all of a sudden and I don’t know why. I have just spoken to sleep clinic doctor for the first follow-up and been told that there is a good chance that the level of dexamfetamine that I thought was ok is probably actually too high and may have been a contributing factor in what happened with my exam. It is the first time I’ve ever taken an exam while on dexamfetamine, let alone 15mg.

I explained that I stopped taking all my daily medication during the worst of my breakdown, and had only restarted taking them on Sunday night. So I am currently on 5mg and had planned to increase to 10mg tomorrow. He has said to stay on 5mg for the rest of the week then increase to 10 and stop.

He believes 10mg is probably more where I need to be. That everyone is impacted by so many different things on different days etc so 15mg might be ok on some days but there are others were it’s just too much. Looking back at the past month, I can see what he is saying. It’s a very delicate thread trying to get everything just right lol. Medication wise.

Today I have spoken to the university disability service and they were able to help me get a university counselling phone session for tomorrow. I will be with my mum and sister but I made it for 2pm so I think it will be ok.

The anxious feeling is subsiding so that is good. I have spoken to disability lady, pain specialist, university IT support and my sleep specialist’s associate so far today. The last one was on video. I made a short video about it and will post link once it’s uploaded.

This morning the lady told me to do something nice for myself and not think about uni for the rest of the day. So I am now lying on my couch with Boss, who is very happy because I even managed to take him to the dog park today, and watch ‘The Good Doctor’ on Netflix.

I don’t know why but knowing that everything going pear shaped during the exam may also be due to an incorrect medication dosage really does help me feel better 😊