I did what always happens to me in exams and froze.. didn’t even finish it. Had 70 multiple choice questions and 4 hours. Yet I guess heaps and still had roughly 7 or 8 questions unanswered. Just hit the submit button as the timer hit zero.

I cried so much because I knew in that instant I will get my first grade below Distinction. Even though I started this year’s will all the right intentions. I truly believed I could succeed. Could get High Distinctions for the rest of my grades.

Now instead I am realising that maybe my dreams are just that.. dreams.. unrealistic and unattainable..

So I went to sleep on the couch. Woke up just over hour ago.

To receive a message from work saying I have been removed as my clients worker. Once again I believed in the good of people only to be proven yet again that every single person will screw you over.

And now all I can see in my head are all the ways in which I would like to hurt myself to try and relieve the intensity of what I am currently feeling..

I really don’t want to be here right now. This world makes me so sad and I just want death to come so I can go home…