I received a text message from the coordinator of my night shift client, stating that they would be reinstating my shifts with him. She did however say that she has given away the Saturday shift, meaning I would only be rostered on Friday night’s starting at 10pm every other Friday. She mentioned that there would be more shifts available with him in the end of July which is good. Plus now it’s thankfully back to normal so I can be sent details for clients at anytime.

Obviously I am extremely relieved that I did not end up ruining everything and life can now go back to normal. But the strange thing is, I didn’t feel immediate relief at the news. In fact, it was like all the tension amd stress I’d been holding onto for so long finally broke free since I literally started shaking.

I have not as yet received an official email, which I am guessing I will receive soon.

I originally thought I would be notified by closeness business yesterday, since the meeting was on Tuesday morning and the operations manager said the end of the week to begin with but then said end of business day the following day (yesterday).

I didn’t hear anything and had the meeting running through my mind, so this morning I decided to email her and just clarify a few things. Like the fact that I smoke less than half of what my weed prescription says, and what I would ideally like to happen, since Grossy wasn’t sure if I was totally clear. She emailed that she was sick yesterday and very sorry for causing me extra stress. So at least I knew that this morning.

I have been working on a psychology seminar for the entire day. My uni friend called me at 8:30am to make sure I was up since I had to start catching up on my assignment. It is currently 4:45pm on Thursday afternoon and yet so far I am currently 58:29 minutes into it. I’m truly not sure where the day has gone. I mean sure I rewind and pause and go back a lot to take notes, but I really should have finished both watching this seminar and completing the assignment that goes with it. Though, I have managed to at least print it out and put it next to me to look at as I work through the seminar.

Due to the fact I started shaking upon hearing the news that I haven’t lost my job, I decided to have a bong to help me relax. Which it did. I also decided to pull apart the spare cigarette I’d pinched off Grossy on Tuesday to make a few rollies, but didn’t actually enjoy it when I had one so that’s something good.

Now I am going to go back to watching the seminar and taking notes. Thankfully I don’t think there is a lot to go. Then I can look at the assignment with fresh eyes in the morning.

Technically the assignment is due tomorrow at 8pm, but because of everything that has been going kn and my inability to do anything without crying for over a week, I applied for an extension. It was granted today until the 22nd of May. I am very happy about this, but really want to catch up, not fall more behind on uni.

So the moral of this very terrible period in my life is.. always trust myself, listen to my intuition, never cross boundaries again, and that the Universe really does have my back ♡