Right now, where I am at, 12:36pm on Tuesday the 27th April 2021, I would honestly give anything in the world if it meant I could talk to you.

I know its been years, but my feelings for you only continue to grow each and every day.

Usually I can bask in the amazing feeling of unconditional love that I feel for you, but right now, I’m not sure what I’m feeling but it is making me want to cry.

I can’t help but wonder what your life is like now. Being a dad and all. I know how much you wanted children so I am happy for you and know you must be an amazing dad.

I will love you forever. I have given up trying to date or be in relationships with anyone else. It’s pointless and incredibly unfair on the next person.

I know there are people in my life who just don’t understand and never will how I feel about you, but that’s ok. I choose to live my life being true to myself and that truth is that my life is only as good as it is because you came into it and woke me up from the deep seated pain and sadness I had experienced my whole life.

And now there are tears flowing as I sit and wait for an appointment while I write this.

I dreamed about you again last night. The dreams I have of you always make me smile.

But I have always felt our connection so much more stronger when the moon is full and its a super full moon tonight.

I wish I could send this to you but I honestly have no idea if you receive my emails. I know you were made to block me on everything when I finally said I couldn’t keep doing what we were as it was so unfair on everyone.

But nothing in this world will stop me loving you. Because there is no off switch when it comes to unconditional love. Believe me I have spent years trying to get to a point where I can forget you but I can’t and I accept that I never will.

We chose to come to earth together during this lifetime. Our last lifetime. We incarnated to earth at the same time for a reason. I know your soul knows this.

I knew who you were to me at a soul level the night we met. 6 years later has not changed this one single bit.

I love you so much Mr X. More than anyone will ever be able to comprehend. I just wish I was able to feel what I’m currently feeling without the tears.

And just like that the tears are gone and my smile is back. This is why I write these blogs. Because it helps me when I’m being overwhelmed by feelings I don’t totally understand.

I will continue to keep sending you and your family love Mr X, because your happiness truly does mean the world to me.

I love you ♡