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Umm that was strange ๐ ๐คฃ
My doctor told me to spend the rest of today focused solely on what makes me happy without thinking about what anyone else would have to say about it So that’s what I am doing Embracing the very real feeling of love that I can feel when I just breathe and be here.. It’s hard
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God I want a cigarette ๐ซ
I even have a couple.. but I know I’ll regret it… Right now though I just hit with this most profound pain in my chest. Like pure sadness pouring out of me.. Every single time I think I am doing better it’s like.. nope, lets trigger the fuck out of you and see if you
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Well this explains a lot! ๐ฅบ
I am constantly having the same problems arise because I can’t seem to remember the lesson learnt from the previous times! ๐ฅ Hopefully once how sad I feel starts to dissipates, I will be able to fully appreciate how good it is that at least I know now, instead of never finding out.
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I can’t tell if I’m genuinely sad or just so physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted it’s making me sad ๐
Thank goodness for Boss. He truly is my guardian angel ๐ I found out on Thursday the doctors letter I sent to the disability service at university was never passed on to the person it was intended for as it “inappropriate”. As soon as I found out I emailed both my doctor and psychologist immediately.
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Taking a break from trying to edit this train wreck of an essay..
Working on it as shit as I feel, knowing it is probably the worst essay I have ever written and it was the most important one in my philosophy degree, I feel sad. Have had to take a number of valuim just to be able to open laptop and print it out to edit. I
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I honestly can’t believe this is happening.. I have so much to do ๐ซ and now my laptop isn’t charging ๐
As soon as I wrote that title the reason why this is happening clicked into place.. I have so much to do and I’m over it. At every single level.. therefore that’s the vibration I’m putting out so the Universe is just bringing me more of it. Manifestation is real fpr everything. The good the



