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Umm that was strange π π€£
My doctor told me to spend the rest of today focused solely on what makes me happy without thinking about what anyone else would have to say about it So that’s what I am doing Embracing the very real feeling of love that I can feel when I just breathe and be here.. It’s hard
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God I want a cigarette π«
I even have a couple.. but I know I’ll regret it… Right now though I just hit with this most profound pain in my chest. Like pure sadness pouring out of me.. Every single time I think I am doing better it’s like.. nope, lets trigger the fuck out of you and see if you
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Man my mum makes me sad sometimes π₯π
I wish this wasn’t true but it is. I love her so much and I honestly don’t think she knows or accepts it But all she continues to do is dismiss me, minimise me and compare me to all these “people I know who have multiple conditions and they just take their meds and get
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I tried so hard not to.. I really did ππ
But instead I’ve just added more cuts and eventually scars to myself.. I was definitely kidding myself that I could help anyone π€£ Time to go back to sleep
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I just want to stay numb.. I am beyond struggling
Trigger warning: talk of self harm, suicide, very emotional, I’ve definitely had a really bad day π₯Ίπ What I believe in definitely does align with how I react to situations. Especially when I feel like I have been betrayed. Which is exactly how I feel. In fact the level of betrayal is far deeper in