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Day 948: 3rd August 2024 | Part 2 | I need a door ๐ช๐
I have had an interesting, emotionally draining day. I am still very much reacting to everything in a low vibrational, negative, sad, and highly anxious way. Which brings on panic attacks and crying. I just keep getting hit with more news. Like the room that is free for me to use doesn’t have a door.
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I feel flat as f*ck ๐
My dreams are still as intense as ever. I am remembering them all throughout the days following them… And today I just feel flat and like I could cry. I have I no doubt seeing the happy family photos of Mr X is contributing to how I feel. But I have so much uni work
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Reflections on today.. I was anxious when I started writing this post.. writing it out has helped me ๐
I feels weirdly anxious all of a sudden and I don’t know why. I have just spoken to sleep clinic doctor for the first follow-up and been told that there is a good chance that the level of dexamfetamine that I thought was ok is probably actually too high and may have been a contributing