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Day 948: 3rd August 2024 | Part 2 | I need a door ๐ช๐
I have had an interesting, emotionally draining day. I am still very much reacting to everything in a low vibrational, negative, sad, and highly anxious way. Which brings on panic attacks and crying. I just keep getting hit with more news. Like the room that is free for me to use doesn’t have a door.
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I can’t tell if I’m genuinely sad or just so physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted it’s making me sad ๐
Thank goodness for Boss. He truly is my guardian angel ๐ I found out on Thursday the doctors letter I sent to the disability service at university was never passed on to the person it was intended for as it “inappropriate”. As soon as I found out I emailed both my doctor and psychologist immediately.
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Taking a break from trying to edit this train wreck of an essay..
Working on it as shit as I feel, knowing it is probably the worst essay I have ever written and it was the most important one in my philosophy degree, I feel sad. Have had to take a number of valuim just to be able to open laptop and print it out to edit. I
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The sooner I can get my breathing under control the sooner I can get back to working on this damn literature review ๐๐ฅบ
It’s 6:18pm Sunday night. This morning I was calm. Now I am not and haven’t been for a number of hours. Just reminding myself to breathe. Just breathe. Focusing on the fact I am doing the best I can given the overwhelming pressure I have felt all week. If I had been left to submit
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Lazy Sunday afternoon
I slept until after 11 am. Body sore and suffering from intense period pain, so decided for now at least that I’m going to do what I clearly need and relax ๐ Lying on my bed with throw over blanket, Boss next to me, watching the latest season of How To Get Away With Murder.
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My philosophy essay is due tomorrow! Not Tuesday but Monday night ๐คฆโโ๏ธ๐
This entire time I have thought that Tuesday was the 7th of June. It was only first thing this morning when checking the calendar to see which bin was due to put on the curb, that I saw today is actually the 6th, therefore my essay is due tomorrow! ๐ฌ I still don’t have a
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Considering the level of pain I’m in, I am really pleased with how well these vegan salami and salad wraps turned out ๐๐
It is 7:21pm on Monday evening. I’m already in my pjs and lying on my bed with Friends on my TV as background noise while I scroll on my phone for a bit and maybe read some reddit. That’s if I can keep my eyes open that is ๐ ๐คฃ I’ve been up since 5:50am so
